I am a 25 yr old collections rep.Sad,isnt? Not in a millions years growing up would have thought this would be my source of income. I have always look at people in collections as someone who was wasting time until something better came along. I hope I havent offended anyone but hell this was not my plan in life. I had planned early on to be an ob/gyn but I couldnt handle the science, so I majored in Speech Communications at Eastern Illinois University. Talk about a broad major I kicked my self in ass when I did that, it was a big mistake. Majoring in that just guranteed not have a trade and become a collections rep! I hate what I have become and I need to fix it immmediately! That is why I have to find my motivation. I use to think it was helping people but now I dont. Money motivates me , but doenst motivate everyone? I am so confused and everyone around is confused also! I need help.

It was April 19,1998, I was 18 yrs.old. Some might say I was a late bloomer but like Pringles "Once I popped I didnt stopped" lol. It was my freshmen yr of college and I was ready to get rid of this awful thing called virginity. Most women wait until they are in love , but I was tired of waiting. Love was no were in sight and hell I was about to be 19! I lost it to my sister best friend's brother. We werent " technically" together because he had a girlfriend but he loved me (at least that what I wanted to believe). Looking back on it he was a total loser. He had three kids and three baby mammas! I guess in my mind I didnt care because I needed to get laid. You are probably thinking why did I want to lose my virginity so bad. Well let me try to explain, out of all my friends I was the only virgin and I hated it. I would pretend to be "experienced" and was rather good at it. I was tired of setting myself up to go to Hell, so I decided to sin in a more pleasurable way. Ok back to April 19,1998, I went over his house about 8:00 and confessed that I wanted tonight to be the night and although he agreed it was going to be hard to find a private place seeing as though he lived with five other people in a one bedroom apartment! We decided we would wait until everyone sleep so about 12 we preceeded to make a pallet on the floor in the living room behind the couch (this was his usual sleeping place). Here we were behind the couch while his friend was sleep on the loveseat, his sister on the couch and his mother, sister and niece was in the bedroom! No foreplay, hell I didnt have my shirt off! Ten minutes of fast pumping and it was over. He laid beside me and went to sleep. All I could think was damn this is what I was missing! Hell I could had a V8! Well this was this one and only time I had sex with this particular person , I went on to bigger and better things.

To be continued.....

No,I am not talking about my first time having sex. that happened many moons ago! I am referring to this being my first time publishing a blog, so bare with me. Let me start by saying that I always wanted to keep track of my daily events but I never invested in a diary. You are in for a rollercoaster. I promise to be straightforward with entries. I have been around the block a few times and spent the night (if you know what I mean).